Being Undomesticated

Of late, I have been spoiling myself rotten. Since Eid, my laziness dah naik tahap dewa! There are like tons of things in my head that I wanted to do but nothing come close. Some good days, I managed to achieved few things  (homey things la) but then I would slacked again into nothingness.

On daily basis, I completed necessity mundane homey tasks such as cooking, making sure the kids go to school, the laundry business (still hate it!) and what not.  I guess this is the down period of my life being in the domestic world. Its kinda diffcult to feel 'high' compared to when u were in the corporate world where u get a pat on the back for a great presentation, for a project well executed, for dealing with urgent matters, for tackling issues professionally etc...

For someone like me who scores an average in the cooking dept and in the home keeping dept, being a housewife makes me feel so average, huwaaa!

Not that I want to go back to the corporate world, dun think I can handle the pressure of dealing with those office bitches datelines and stuff. Just that I wanna feel special and important. Perhaps its the live in arabia that limits what a lady can do. Here, I have to be very dependent on my hubby. As we cant drive, even if I wanna buy a loaf of bread, I need to wait for him to buy it. There's lack of independence in living your life and with that I seemed to have less confidence in dealing with the world.
Sigh...Now; how to get that zest back??? ...to have that ummphh in life like how I  used to feel in my 20s *wishful thinking*